To: Ms. Rona
It is 5 a.m right now and I have been going through this scenario many times in my head.
‘’Write your first text, put yourself out there.’’
To be fair, I first learnt how to write when I was 6 years old. I am not talking about the grammatical aspect of writing. I learnt how to put my thoughts and emotions into words, and started my first blog. It was absolute garbage, considering the fact that I didn’t know how to spell properly until I was atleast 11 years old.
That was a pretty long time ago, now I’m 20 years old. I am a morning person or an night owl. It all really depends on the perspective you see life through. I barely know myself anymore.
I had so much plans for this year, so did we all. The amount of people I have lost, either by death or distance. I should consider myself lucky to be on anti-depressants. The only problem is that I barely feel at all, you feel?
I don’t feel bad, which is the entire point with my medicine. I finally got the diagnose and the right help for my ADHD so that is also a good thing. But I wouldn’t necessarily go as far to say I feel good. Like I am numb but in a intermediate way. Most of us must feel like that by now.
2020 has been a complete mess, just like this text. I miss my family, my job, my friends, travelling, just sitting on a bus for the sake of it.